Friday, July 30, 2004
Avril Lavigne
Happy Ending
So much for my happy ending
oh oh, oh oh, oh oh, oh ohOh oh, oh oh, oh...
Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something You said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be
CHORUS
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
All of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
oh oh, oh oh, oh oh, oh oh
Oh oh, oh oh
You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be
CHORUS
It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done
Just The Girl @
10:31 PM
my jnrs are using my tagboard
to have a fight online... weows... not bad
hahas.. and what is this taking control over me
like hello?
I control my own life.. hahas..
whatever..
waited in sch today for buddy to finish her bio test
and hai... went on a diet again bcoz of her
so anw she is supposed to take photos of the shops she frequents
but realise that i will always have to remind her to do that
bcoz she totally forget abt it when she sees nice clothes
so typical of her.. hahas
and no for the final time i am not angry of whatsoever with u
juz feeling mentally and physically exhausted
satisfied?
Just The Girl @
9:41 PM
Tuesday, July 27, 2004
i think i am just plain PMS-ing
just feel that the whole world is against me
and the feeling seems to be mutual
it is either that i snap at pple
or the others will snap back at me
that's how that world goes round eh?
went down for drills today
felt out of place amongst the sec 3s
hahas... had to control myself so that
i wouldnt start screaming at the sec ones
bcoz of their drills
dun want to let the sec 3s feel that we are still
trying to control them
but really, they have taken over
and we shouldnt step in too much
Just The Girl @
9:19 PM
Thursday, July 22, 2004
i have really never had so many pple
tagging my board before.. hahahas and its all sec ones!
lalalalas... thank u all so much
oh and if u all are still wondering
where are all the photos,
i can only tell u to wait while i try to
figure out how the heck do i shrink the size of the photos
so that i do not need to wait for 4 hrs for it to load it up
hahahas.. and u all know that i am really not that
tachno savvy so i need to wait for my BIL's help
before i manage to load any pics up
sorry for all the inconveniences caused
thank u for ur understanding.
hahahas... whatever lar.. lame me
now that all the sec 4s have to step down
will find it weird to go home with some
pple who usually have cca on tue or thur
oral prelim is this sat
and it dawned on me that i only have abt 2 more
months before prelims
4 more months to Os
and maybe 9 more weeks before we all kinda
stop coming to sch altogether
bcoz we are all hibernating somewhere
to cram everything inside
and after grad night,
that will probably be the last time that i may
see some of the sec fours
and after that it will be adieu.
Just The Girl @
10:21 PM
Sunday, July 18, 2004
that's it...sec 4 sqd 2004 has officially passed out. Gone are the days where we were once the head sqd. no more pple greeting us "m'ams" when we strolled in for cca; no more fretting over whether the sec ones handed in their money; no more having the sec ones standing outside my class comtmplating to call me; no more footdrills sessions during recess; no more seeing my juniors do triage on me; no more doing pt in the morning; no more commanding the sec ones for fd; all these will jus become a memory to me... but it will be a very sweet one though.
many of u may not noe this but i
had regretted joining snsj in sec one. throughout that yr,i blamed myself for not joining track and to join in the glory in being in that supendum cca. i am totally wasting my talent in this lousy cca. but at the end of sec one, and as i look back, i relise how foolish i have been. SNSJ is and will be the bestest cca i will ever have. i can now proudly announce that i have no regrets joining this cca which others think is a lousy one( and whoever says that will really get a reprimand from me). Writing all these out cannot fully express what i am feeling right now. how i really feel towards having to leave after spending 4 yrs here. This msgs is only a tiny fraction to all the feelings i have now.
To all my sec ones, all 24 of you:
I may have known u guys for only 6 months plus but i feel that i have such a close bond with all of ya. it may be a very short time but i still cant bear to part with all of ya. When all of ya started to sing a different version of
gudanbeibanqiu, my tear glands became uncontrollable. It started to flow then and there and as all of ya sang the song, my eyes scanned through all 17 of u, not knowing when i can see all of you as a sqd again. and as philana takes over as ur new nco, i might jus think that maybe another 6 months down the road, the name Doanna will sound very foreign and unfamiliar. i may have joined the ranks of the past yr senior but all of u will always remain in my heart.
To the sec threes:
i do not noe whether any of u noe that i was the asst of ur nco. but i noe that i have juz been a figurehead, not helping much. still, i wanna thank all of ya for the pop into such a wonderful event. all of u have really put in alot of effort to make this a wonderful memory. all of u will make a great head sqd and as i look down memory lane the next few yrs, i will always remember all of u. promise.
to my dearest squaddiex:
i can never thank u enough for letting lurve sj so much. we have all grown up together from 2001-2004. all the stuff that we have gone through together. the suffering and pain, the joy and laughter. lame water cheers n hentah cheers that we have done and tried to outdo our juniors and seniors. our admiration for our sj u and the constant complaining that our skirts were too tight for us. the friendships that we have all forged and the memory we will all share. it is hard to see or talk to u in sch and now that there isnt any cca, there wont be any more time for squad interaction. i guess that may be the last time we will all see each other again as a sqd. i will always lurve all of u and i will always do.
Just The Girl @
6:39 PM
Thursday, July 15, 2004
2 more days to POP
not even half of the presents are ready
and i am not having any luck in finding
the stuff that i want
on top of that i am plagued
with so many problems which seem quite unsolvable
correction.. they CANNOT be solved
i have to live with that problem
FOREVER!
just noticed that many of us have got eyebags alr
ha... and kezia keeps complaining that
it is not nice
puleeze.. having tests everyday
will take a toil on us
even if u are a superwoman
with a brain that is like a sponge
it is a chore to take a test
i mean it
juz felt like giving up and putting my pen down
and juz go to sleep on the table
i mean this whole thing has become so mundane
i can hardly keep up
dont even really study nowadays
juz slam the book when i dont have the mood
i juz want the yr to pass quickly
but yet i dont want to.
wanna leave all these revision tests behind
want to get the Os over and done with
want to go shopping without getting nagged at
want to go on a hol and relax
but....
dun want to graduate
dun want to leave the place that
i have called sch for 10 yrs
dun want to leave this comfort zone
dun want to leave my friends
dun want to leave my squadmates
dun want to leave my juniors
Just The Girl @
6:53 PM
Saturday, July 10, 2004
my last cca of the yr
i am sad.
there is no denying of it.
i didnt want the time to pass so much
but i just cant catch it, hold it
and let everything come to a standstill
can i? No.
i am feeling a sense of rather
strong emotions.
i dun wanna leave but i have to.
it doesnt seem like we have taken over for a yr alr
the turnout of pple was rather good
all the sec 4s came down
it has been ages since all of us came
down together as a full sqd
and it is the only time when we took our sqd photo
probably our 2nd last photo yeahs?
the last one will be next week.
and there is another problem
there is simply no time for me to go shopping
and buy all those presents
esp my successor's one
not forgetting all those special presents
i dun noe how am i gonna
squeeze out time
but i will find a way no matter what
cant possibly pass down to my successor
empty-hande right?
Just The Girl @
7:27 PM
Tuesday, July 06, 2004
today's rv test was a killer
never felt so desperate
during a maths test b4
if i do pass this,
i will be very grateful alr
waited with weilin to go home together
coz oral test was cancelled
her father was supposed to
drop me off at kembangan mrt but he came late
we killed time by walking up and down in the forum
saw the sec twos
prob discussing pop
wanted to plop ourselves in their grp
but thought it was too extra and they wouldnt
discuss with us there anw
so we went to the student corner or whatever that is called
and collected postcards
hahas
they have nice pc from nyp..
so anw, i sat an hr car ride
coz her brudda had to go to NUS to meet his friend
and today is his grad day
so wasted abt one half hour travelling
oh and my sis irish fren has moved on to KL
so finally i can sleep on my
own bed again!
couldnt really sleep on san's bed
always having backache
when i sleep with her
Just The Girl @
9:43 PM
[sun]
went out the entire day
with my sis Irish friend
she will be travelling roung the world by
herself within 2 months
and she is onlt 21
a very brave gal
and S'pore is her first stop
then she will be travelling
up north, head to australia
followed by the US
so cool!!
went to yum cha with my family
and the friend of course
and she was so amazed by all the food
and the bouganvilla on the streets
after that we went to clarke quay
to look ard the flea mkt
and i genna dragged along to go to sentosa lar
not a bit boring
go orchid garden and butterfly park
waited for the friend for an hr
outside the park while she went in herself
to explore the insects and creepy crawlies
then we went to geylang
and had 3 rounds of food
round1: frog porridge
hahaha...my favourite!!
round2: tau huay, you tiao and toasted bun
round3: durians
and obviously the friend couldnt
stand the smell of the durian
and after that, we drove through the lanes
of geylang coz the friend was amazed that
S'pore has prostitutes [legal n illegal]
and all of us were truely amazed that
there was really an influx of both
young women and ji ko pek
was really disgusted by the sight
coz there were really so many girls
that those dirty guys have the opportunity
to scrutinize them and pick their choices
the girls look so pathetic!!!
Just The Girl @
7:30 PM
